I Am, Still…


“I would like to marry your daughter.”

Oh really! Tell me why! 

A question that I was prepared to hear but was not prepared to hear. Feel me…

Sometimes in life you are prepared to face anything. Well, at least it seems that way. Mary is now in her twenty’s, finished school, has a full time job, has matured, and is ready to be married. But there’s a problem. And the problem is simple in my eyes. In my eyes I am still holding that new born baby on my chest after a hard day’s work. I am still pitching a tent in the back yard because a young girl has said, “daddy let’s camp out tonight.” I am still sitting around the fire pit in the back yard, roasting hot dogs and smores, as she runs around wild in the night with her friends. I am still hiding in the bushes, scaring the dickens out of her and her fiends, as they try and find me. I am still trekking through the woods, acting like I am somebody that knows all the rules of survival, while she tags along. I am still showing her how to change the oil in the car, while leaving the oil plug out and oil going all over the ground. Yep. I did that! It did not make me look too smart… I am still… I am still… Well, you get the point.

“I would like to marry your daughter.” Oh really! Tell me why!

“Because I love her with all my heart.” “Because she means the world to me.” “Because I want to spend the rest of my life with her.” “Because she is my best friend.”

Wow, that is exactly how I feel. I love her with all my heart. She means the world to me. So…

While my “I am still’s”, will become but a memory for me, Mary will step into a relationship where many “I am Still’s” will be made and cherished. Mary will soon become one flesh with the man I have prayed for longer than either one of them has been alive. The man I have prayed for to take my “I am still’s.” The man I have prayed for that will take my daughter and provide for her and protect her. The man I have prayed for that will be the Spiritual Giant in their family. The man I have prayed for that will assume my role as provider and protector and enjoy the “I am still’s.” 

Today, I am honored in God for His choice for Mary. I am honored to give up my “I am still’s.” I am honored to entrust Adam with the protection of my daughter. I am honored to entrust Adam with the provisions that sustain my daughter. I am honored to entrust the Spiritual disciplines and growth of my daughter and their children to Adam. I am honored…

Now, since the “I am still’s are fixing to be delivered to the new man that has her heart, I must calculate what I should do with the rest of my life since all the pressure’s will soon be taken off?… NOT… Lol… God is good all the time.

Gary